Dean Marcus Cole, "I am George Floyd. Except, I can breathe. And I can do something."

My friend (and now, my boss at Notre Dame Law School) Marcus Cole has written an essay reflecting on the killing of George Floyd and on his own personal experiences with violent racism.  Apologies for the long post, but I'm just pasting it (with his permission):

I am George Floyd. Except, I can breathe. And I can do something.
G. Marcus Cole

Over the past several days, I have received numerous messages of care and support from
friends, neighbors, and acquaintances, each of whom simply wanted to express their concern for
how I might be feeling in the wake of the murder of George Floyd. For many, I am perhaps one of
the only African-American men in their social or business circles. Others, especially those who
know me well, are cognizant of my own personal experiences with racial violence. Their
expressions of love and support are rooted in the fact that the circumstances surrounding the deaths
of George Floyd and Ahmaud Arbery are strikingly similar to my own accounts of an attack on
my father over fifty years ago, one I witnessed as a little boy. What my friends may not know, but
surely suspect, is that each report of racial violence at the hands of a police officer or group of men
brings to the surface the vivid memories of that terrible night.

On a hot summer Friday evening, my little sister asked my parents for strawberries. We
lived in a predominantly Orthodox Jewish neighborhood in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, and so all of
the stores were closed. But my sister wanted strawberries, and my father wanted to get them for
her. So, he loaded me, my sister, and my baby brother into the back seat of our car, and drove to
another neighborhood to get strawberries. As we returned home, my father noticed that we were
being followed by another car. Suddenly, that other car swerved in front of us and stopped, forcing
our car to halt at the curb. In an instant, three white men, all in their twenties, jumped out of their
car and rushed to ours. They dragged my father out of the car, and began to beat him with tire
irons, a crow bar, and a baseball bat. They did this in full view of his three little children. When
neighbors came out, the three men jumped back into their car and sped off, leaving my father for
dead on the hood of our car. I can still see his hand reaching for me against the windshield covered
with his blood.

While my father survived that night, he lived the rest of his life with a surgically
reconstructed eye socket, complete with a plate in his face that set off metal detectors. But his were
not the only scars that those men left. If it were not for our neighbors, I often wonder whether my
little sister, baby brother and I would have survived that night. I often think about my failure to
remember the license plate number when asked by the police. And while I can still see the taillights
of the car through that bloody windshield, I know that those men will never have to answer for
what they did to us. At least not in this life.

It would be one thing if I could have been assured then, or even now, that such a thing
could never happen again. My own experience proves that it can.
As an African-American man, I have had the experience of being pulled over by a police
officer, with no apparent or expressed reason for the stop. I have been berated and verbally abused,
without receiving a ticket or a warning. The most scarring of these events occurred in front of my
two little boys, who are now grown, African-American men themselves. The police officer was
intent on nothing more than humiliating and emasculating me in front of my small children, hoping
to provoke me to respond. At that moment, I remember thinking that the most important thing I
could do for my sons was to survive the encounter. Still, I have often thought about what lasting
scars may have cut into their psyche by watching what that officer did to me that night. I often
wonder what my sons think of me, as a man, and as their protector, knowing that I could not fight
back.

Yes, I am alive, and George Floyd is dead. I can breathe; he cannot. But just because a
police officer did not murder me or my children does not mean that he did not harm us.
Like many African-American men, my experiences are far too common. While they have
never left me, these memories are all too frequently brought back to the surface by watching the
videos that have become routine on American televisions and mobile telephones. The callous
murders of unarmed men like Ahmaud Arbery and George Floyd are real for me. That could have
been my father. That could have been me. That could be either one of my sons. And in a very real
sense, like many other African-American men, I am George Floyd. Except, I can breathe. And I
can do something. I must do something.

While my education and position do not grant me immunity from racial violence, they do
place me in a position to do something about it.

I am a lawyer, a law professor, and Dean of one of the nation’s leading law schools. As the
Dean of Notre Dame Law School, I have a special allegiance to the legacy of Father Theodore
Hesburgh. In addition to his role as the longtime President of the University of Notre Dame, Father
Hesburgh was the Chair of the United States Commission on Civil Rights. When his stance for
social justice caused President Richard Nixon to demand his resignation from the Commission,
Father Hesburgh continued his efforts by founding the Center for Civil Rights at Notre Dame Law
School. Early in its existence, the Center broadened its advocacy to International Human Rights.

Today, Notre Dame Law School equips lawyers from all around the world with the training and
tools they need to fight for human rights. The murder of George Floyd has shown us that we must
also cast our gaze closer to home.

It is urgent that we recognize that human rights are under threat all around the world,
including here in the United States. This reality must be acknowledged, and addressed. To do so,
I want to restore Father Hesburgh’s original vision for Notre Dame Law School by taking three
steps.

First, I will work with my faculty colleagues at Notre Dame to restore Father Hesburgh’s
vision for our Master of Laws in Human Rights. This program will continue to train lawyers from
around the world, and also lawyers interested in advancing the fight for human rights here in the
United States. We will fully fund students selected to train at Notre Dame Law School for a career
defending civil and human rights in the United States, in the same way that we do for those training
to defend human rights in other countries.

Second, I will work with Notre Dame faculty, alumni, and benefactors to fully fund
fellowships for, and actively recruit, exceptional applicants for our Juris Doctor program
committed to the cause of civil rights. Our goal will be to provide Notre Dame lawyers for every
community in this country to stand vigilant against violations of civil and human rights, wherever
those threats might arise.

Third, I will ask the Notre Dame Law School faculty to establish a new Exoneration Law
Clinic, aimed at releasing from the criminal justice system those who are victims of prosecutorial
or police misconduct. We will return fathers and mothers to their sons and daughters, particularly
when their only “crime” was to be born the wrong color.

These are things that I, in my position, can do. But it is not enough. I cannot do this alone.

Each of us must do what we can, wherever we are.

One thing that each and every one of us can do is to end the cycle of hate by ending the
separation that leads to it. This racial separation and violence will not end until we stop waiting
for African-Americans to enter our circles. Each of us needs to get to know people who differ from
us. We must all make a conscious decision and effort to expand our circles.

The Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. spoke in King Chapel at Cornell College, Mount
Vernon, Iowa, on Oct. 15, 1962. He said,

I am convinced that men hate each other because they fear each other. They fear each
other because they don’t know each other, and they don’t know each other because they
don’t communicate with each other, and they don’t communicate with each other because
they are separated from each other.

Each one of us can choose to finally end hate, by ending this separation. We must do
something. This is something each one of us can do.

I am committed to doing three things to change this world for the better. Please join me.
What three things can you do to make this world a better place? How can I help you?